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VOCALOID Fukase: Lost One’s Weeping (Cover)



VOCALOID Fukase: Lost One’s Weeping (Cover)

Hi everybody! ๐Ÿ’– I missed you! I missed doing this! I graduated again ๐ŸŽ“๐ŸŽ“ so expect more of this! next cover is with YOHIOLOIDDDD it is already FINISHED but enough of that for now.

8 years after the original, after sitting on the cover for a year with no time in my studies to make a video to accompany it, I give to you the version where he loses Miku. happy birthday to him. It’s really a gift to myself having an excuse to draw such tragic expressions on his face. Don’t worry. I go to therapy ๐Ÿ‘

here it is….! my STUPID LETTER!! # mystupidletter ๐Ÿ’Œ

To Fukase, on his tenth anniversary…
When you came into my life I was a 15 year old girl trying as hard as I could to become a woman. I had braces, and clothes that didn’t fit, and long hair I didn’t know what to do with, and a boyfriend who I’d find out was texting another girl that summer.
I’m going to be 25 this year and I think it’s funny to tell people I’m kind of the same but bigger. It’s not wholly true. I have pretty layers in my hair now and a white opal lip ring. I have killer tattoos – my favorite the one of you. I have two college degrees in science. I’ve taken dead people apart. My boyfriend is a woke pescatarian transgender man I met at university and he is the love of my life. The darkness under my eyes got deeper and I like it. I quit shaving and I like it. I carry myself like I’m someone I like to be, because it turns out I’m not at all like the woman I was clinging to when I was a teenager.
You’ve not seen me once in these ten years. Weird. But somehow you’ve seen me through them.
My covers, my visual artwork, my cosplay & drag performance, and the LASCIVIOUS fanfiction & roleplays I’ve indulged in…. you don’t know anything about any of it (honestly, thank god). You never will. I’ll never say it to your face. Not because I have a kpop-style freaky parasocial relationship with you, but because you don’t have a physical face I could say it to. Even if you did…. I would be too embarrassed. HAHAHA. I could copy this whole thing and upchuck it back into a character AI if I didn’t give a fuck about anything at all. But for so many reasons it’s better this way.
You have been to me an uncanny, antagonistic, 13yo memelord just looking for a reason to get his nose broken. You have been a nonbinary theatre student in his 20s, blasted by insomnia and student loans, just trying to get by. You have grown alongside me, Fukase, without realizing. You are malleable by design. But when I hear you, when I see you, in every instance, you are ever the same.
Fukase, you are not everything to me. Hate to say. It just wouldn’t be a good look for me. But Fukase, you are very close. I have no actual fucking idea why I attached so much of me to you. But I am very glad I happened to. Thank you for being the most boring anime boy in history for me to project the parts of me I was scared of onto. Thank you for never, ever reading this.

10 more years, king?
Jade S.

34 Comments

  2. @chibibble

    THE KING RETURNS! And what a song to return with! Always loved your Miku and Fukase cover, and this brings so much more to it, ESPECIALLY that overwhelming scream at the end, thank you!

    As a side note, I think it would be really interesting to see a cover of the Lost One's Weeping 2015 Depression version. I don't see many covers of it yet, and it feels like a crime because it gives such a different, more melancholic tone to the piece, (hence "depression" version). It feels like an adult who used to scream the song as a teen but has finally given up and can't muster up any more strength, it's heartbreaking.

  7. @krashfish_p

    the letter is KILLING MEEE AUGHHH i haven't even watched the cover yet….
    edit: oughh oughhhh ough ough oughhhhh hhh hhbhhh bhbhhhh hhh so done AHHHHHH AUGU AUGGHH HH

  8. @rosequartzzzzzz

    Genuinely i cant say enough to truly express how this cover made me feel, and it was the same way with your original cover too. This is incredible, and im so glad to see you back

  9. @schwiftyjerry666

    I've loved your original Lost One's Weeping cover (and all your other Fukase videos for that matter) for years now. This remake is amazing, I can tell a lot of passion was poured into it and I love seeing how much your art has improved over the years. Thank you for your service to us Fukase fans.

  10. @Anna-ed7kc

    Me trying to find anything to listen to:
    sees iconic Jade S artwork out of the corner of my eye
    double takes
    shakes
    eight hours ago
    clicks ecstatically
    โ€œoh my God homegirl is back and she graduated Iโ€™m so proud!!!
    ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ

    Missed you too. Congrats!!! On hard work paying off!!

  11. @haiyin6

    This is a really beautiful cover, I remembered listening to the Fukase/Miku duet one 8 years ago and it was among one of the songs that got me into vsynths, congratulations on graduating!!

  15. @TEALMASK-P

    HOOOOOOOOLY SHIT WHAT THE FUCK YOU'RE BACK???? dude your fukase covers healed me when i was like. fuckin. 10. now im 18. holy shit

    anyway i support this LET'S GO ANGSTSLOP ๐Ÿ”ฅ๐Ÿ”ฅ๐Ÿ”ฅ๐Ÿ”ฅ๐Ÿ”ฅ

  16. @IckyMiku

    this is making me cry so hard rn, the og cover was so important to me during highschool, now im 21 and its back to help me once again, the intended message behind this cover is so sad like genuinely heartbreaking and it hurts so bad on my part because ive lost so many people close to me during the time between this cover and the original. aaahh i could blab so much more but i just have to say, the art is beautiful, the cover is beautiful, the message, your letter to fukase, and all the emotions people are feeling from this are so beautiful ๐Ÿฉท

  23. @hollyb00bee

    FIRST ORLY RETURNS AFTER KIYOTERU IS UPDATED NOW YOUUUUUU ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐ŸŽ‰๐ŸŽ‰ The return of the fukase legend! โคโค

  26. @ember_0853

    YOURE BACK!!! I MISSED YOU KING THIS IS SO PEAK THANK YOU FOR THIS โค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธ

  28. @failscythe103

    i got this on my recommended. i remember the original and my friend showing me the original over 6 years ago. โค itโ€™s insane to see a remake now

  30. @Foxy_Blitz

    JADE WTF?! YOU COME BACK WITH A REBOOT OF YOUR BANGER COVER AND I JUST SEE IT NOW?!? YouTube being shameful…. (In all honestly, it's nice seeing you back!)

  33. @albeeboo

    YOU'RE BACK AHHHHHHH I'm so so happy I've followed you forever
    This is excellent and I love how important Fukase is to you, it really shows in your growth over the years ughghgh the art is so gripping too

  34. @yorunoowari01

    KING YOU'RE BACK!! 1! I can't tell you how happy (frankly, emotional) it makes me to see your art again!!
    The times of being a hurt, scared little girl are no more, but the power in this cover sure is reeling in some memories aha. I love your Fukase so much

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